Very sad day :(

A few days ago I found out that one of my best friends mom's has cancer. Today I found out it spread a lot and is a lot worse than they thought. As my friend, Ben, was telling me this I almost started to cry. It made me very scared too. I mean, tomorrow I could wake up to hear that my mother has cancer. How very sad that my 15 year old friend is living in fear of loosing his mother. Although both he, and his mother are Christians its still very sad.

Also I had to blow off teenage drama with those girls that I was talking about in the last post. I'm not one for going along with the drama...I just blow it off and say "whatever," but it gets so overwhelming sometimes. Life is hard sometimes. I don't know why I'm in this depressed phase of writing...its just the way it is.

I wrote this last week -

I’m just one girl,
Just one in this world,
It’s easy to give up, turn around, and go home,
Feeling jaded and all alone,
It’s harder to do the right thing,
To live my life to serve my king,
Why do I always have to make it about me?
Question after question,
Some things will never change,
To some people this life is just a game,
But for me it’s so much more,
Jesus was knockin’ on my hearts door,
But on my side there was no handle to let Him in,
He had to break through,
That just makes my head spin,
And suddenly I’m filled with peace,
I want to dance for Him,
I want to give Him everything,
Right now nothing else matters,
I’m just one girl,
But I don’t belong to this world,
It can try to leave my heart in pieces,
But I trust in my Jesus



One of my friends revised it and is writing music to it. His copy is a lot better haha so I'll post it when its done.
Thanks for caring about me...who ever is reading this.

~Faith