Trying to catch my breath

So I can't give much of an update since the last time I updated...I mean I'm pretty sure I've gone a few days without crying, which i guess you don't really notice when you aren't crying....so yeah. I'm still just hanging in there. I have amazing brothers and amazing friends, things are always changing, and I'm always on the go. I'm always behind in homework and no matter what I feel like I don't have enough free time. I take naps whenever I get the chance, but it takes me hours to fall asleep at night even though i'm always so so very tired. Chocolate is still my best friend. And homeade bobas aren't as good as Bethanys for sure.



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crickets chirp like laughter at my loneliness,
My thoughts of what I’ve done,
turn into wonders of what I’m doing and what’s to come,
some days your words are all I need,
and other days they leave me crying,
at times you are so hard to read,
or maybe I’m blinded by stupidity,
I try to take a step back,
But I’m only drawn in closer,
I’m sick and tired of being stuck,
But I can’t imagine moving either,
I’d like to stop a moment and catch my breath,
But that would give me time to think,
And I want to avoid my thoughts of regrets,
A day, a time, and crushing expectation seem to all pass so quickly,
But the emotions of my heart keep the brokenness still beating,
Another morning I wake up to face another day,
But then as I lie awake in bed,
With all the dark around me, to myself I say,
Just hold on one more time,
Patiently I’m waiting,
And I know no matter what I face each day,
I have the promise of eternal healing.

-Faithie