sorry its been so long ....

update...hmmm.

I'm super busy. Like all the time. And although its very stressful, i like it better that way. I don't like having time to think. I don't know whats wrong with me...I do know I am one ridiculous person. lol. Prom is in two days. TWO DAYS. Every one keeps asking me if i'm excited...and I know I should be but when ever I get asked that I'm just like "yeah, whatever" and I don't know why. Now I have been feeling really bad since about Sunday, and yes, I am in bed sick right now...which is extremely stressful...since like I said...prom is in two freakin days. It also might be because I got asked, but my date had to back out at last minute. It also might be because the closest thing I ever had to some kind of "boy friend" is going with another girl. And yes, we are just friend, and no, I don't still want these feelings for him. But even though 99% of the time i deny them...they are still there. It also might be because another girl has the same dress as me. It also might be because I still have so much to do before then. There are some reasons...take your pick. Ugh. I don't know. I guess I just get so sick of pretending everything is okay, but when I stop pretending I feel so selfish because I really don't have anything to complain about. Also...I just really want to sorry for never writing about the amazing blessings that happen in my life. I really am going to make more of an effort to post about those...because really, there are so many.
I'm just confused. And I wish I wasn't. And although I'm very much the "go with the flow" kind of person...I can't help but wonder just where this flow is going sometimes.

~Faith