Sooo....

Is it bad that its the first day and I'm already ready for the year to be over? haha. Today Sucked. It was hard. And I'm okay if I never have another day like it again. It seems like Crying in the car on the way home from TAFA is something that I do a lot. Its probably just because I'm tired most of the time. But I hate drama. I hate highschool. And I hate my own selfishness.
On top of everything I've been really discouraged because prom is coming up and I'm so excited, but... I can't help but feel like I'm gonna be on my own in the "group." I mean everyone so far that I know of is going or most likely going with a date (as friends) ...except me. And all these girls tell me that I'm a pretty girl and I have a cute laugh, and heck, even some guys tell me this. Yet I sit here watching all my friends with these guys that like them and that they like and I think to myself "I don't want that or anything to do with it yet" but really I do, and then everyone starts talking about prom...and it just makes me wonder..."Why does no one ask me?" And maybe its because I haven't slept very much, its that time of month, and I haven't had any chocolate in a while...but everytime I think about it my eyes just fill up with tears, and I don't understand. And I don't want to sound like a stupid teenage girl...but I even start to wonder "whats wrong with me?" and I know thats stupid. ANd I know that boys are stupid. But that doesn't make it any less hard.