i'm so mad at myself you don't even know.

1/whatever today is/09
10pm

After every time I talk to him, still I cry
But I can’t help myself, no I can’t stop myself,
I deny any lingering feelings for him,
Or at least I try,
But I know they’re there,
I hate that they’re there,

Someone new has come along,
He wants inside,
He thinks I’m strong,
But I’m so young,
And I’ve been hurt,
I bite my tongue,
But can never tell if its not enough or too much,

I’ve got no hope,
I know its over to stay,
Thats the way I want it,
But sometimes I start to miss him,
And wish that it would change,
I wonder if he knows he’s still taking from me,
Or if he ever feels the same way.

Tonight the tears are falling yet again,
And I’m feeling like I’ve got no one to talk to,
As my thoughts start to make my head spin,
So I’ll hide under the converse and try to go to sleep,
And pray that these feelings will soon end.








My life is amazing, there is so much joy, and yet I still let this get me down. ahhh. i hate this. lol.
-faith