I can live alone, yeah, i can watch the sunset on my own

Sorry is been so long, my loved ones. I've been so busy....like you don't even know. haha. But I'm finally back from all my camps and have a day at home doing more than just trying to catch up on sleep! Just so all of you know I've been doing SO much better as far as all the emotional stuff goes. Especially after camp :)
I went to Camp Agape, and Pacesetters, and I grew so much closer to God at both. I ended up being in the same group with Ruth at Pacesetters and I was so fearful of hurt through the week, but God mended our friendship through it and we are on a path of friendship again! God is so good! He has filled me with His peace and hopeless times really do end ;)
I'm finally so done with this boy. All the up and down emotions were so distracting from God and I'm done with that. And its so much easier now. I guess when I really make my mind up about something there really is no changing it. I'm just so much happier without him...and it just needs to stay that way. Its just not right...and even if it was...its not the right time for me anyway.
Today I am making dinner and a birthday cake for my good friend Jeremy because its his birthday :) Davids helping me with the cake but I'm cooking dinner all by myself. Woot woot. I'm excited.
Mychal is the best friend anyone could ever hope for.
I got a new phone and its sooooooo cute.
I love my family. Especially Baylie ;) and my brothers are still my best friends! And my mom is da bom.
I've kinda decided what I want to do when I graduate too now. I think I do want to minor in dance and major in some kinda of writing....and i really want to have a nanny job. haha.
I'm thinking about going to DBU and rooming with Mychal :D

I have a ton of poems I haven't typed up yet, but here are a few....


He led me in believe,
I followed naively,
He stopped to doubt,
I fell and shattered,
He asked to keep going,
But I could not forget,
He broke what I gave and could not get back.
Why give more to a boy of doubts?
He started again,
But I let him keep going,
Left behind I saw something glowing,
I grew closer to it,
It promised to never let go,
Then the boy came back looking to find me alone,
I felt my weakness,
Could not tell sweet smiles goodbye,
He asked what I was thinking,
I could only let out a sigh,
Inside of myself I was waiting for that glow to reappear,
“Here we go again”
Was my pitiful cry,
I care for this boy,
But I knew it was not right,
I kept praying and praying,
Then suddenly that glow filled me with light.




---written at pacesetters---

It’s the tears running down the smile on my face,
Its my head looking up with both hands raised,
Its You in my heart, Lord,
You’re my savior.

It’s the love that I feel when on me their hands lay,
When our heads are bowed down and around me they pray,
Its You in our hearts, Lord,
You’re making a change,
Come take my heart, Lord,
Because of You I’m no longer a slave,
You’re my savior,
You are the savior.

It’s the peace that I feel though the hardships been long,
It’s the trust that I have even when every things wrong,
Because of you I can love and stand strong,
Its all You,
Every part of me longs to be like You,
All the good in my heart is You.

I am yearning to know You,
Reveal Yourself please,
I am yearning to know You,
Consume every part of me,
I am yearning to know You,
I long to be with my King.
You’re my Savior,
You are the Savior,
You’re my Savior,
You are the Savior.



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-Faith